First, I wanna say a decision I made not long ago that I regret, and that is letting someone I care deeply go for a reason I might never understand myself. mayb it was the commitment? as I said, countless times to myself, Why Did You Do That!?!? You know you are gonna regret it!, but no, I didnt listen to myself. was there a real reason? hmmm... (speechless)
You know how some people make a list of criteria of what they want in their partner, well I tried but it was personally rediculous and just too short coz I didnt want to put my expectations that high, so, im never gonna do that again, Thus I put it aside in my head. But when he came along, he didnt fit the list, he created it with his silliness, likes and dislikes, insanity (moderate) and in short, everything else (too much, dont know where to start). When I think about it, I dont know which is worse, loosing a person that is close to me or know that they can just find another. sometimes I wish I could take my words back and live happier today, or would I?. well, I would write more about this,but I always did suck with expressing my emotions into words. *well, i'll stop about this here coz its past 10 and almost 11, gotta make it quick...
Now, forget about the stupid decisions I made, because its useless to dwell upon regrets and past actions. So, i will roughly say what i want to do and hope for in the future, insya-Allah.
• By the age of 20:
- be able too cook
- have a car license
- studying a course that i would have chosen by then, most probably science fields
• afterwords.... (10 years tops)
- have a degree worthy job
- get married?
well thats not much really, I just started thinking about it, as we all know,
Kita merancang, Allah menentukan
so, well just have to try, then wait and see what the future holds..
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